Dear Diary,
I hate myself today, for what I have done and who I became earlier today.
I have come to the conclusion, that my expectations are unreasonable.
It must just be that simple…
If it isn’t, I do not have a rational or logical explanation for the chain of events that have unfolded recently, the past few days in particular. This week has culminated today, with me losing my temper and releasing the Viking Rage within, and becoming the person I utterly despise: Angry Norse Rob
By the way, here’s a side note to all the game developers that I know read my blog: ‘Viking Rage’ should be some sort of Power Up in a video game…
For the second time in 5 years, I yelled at employees today – and I hate myself for that. I hate the person I am in those moments. Not only that, but I will be brooding on ‘me’ and those moments, for a good week or more now…
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Thanks…
Thanks a lot…
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I have to stop this post here. I started writing more about my thoughts, and views with regard to my expectations on conduct within a workplace, but I can feel myself getting worked up all over again – and I don’t need that tonight.
Instead, I will simply say:
I am fed up.
I am angry.
I am disappointed.
I feel let down.
I feel disrespected.
I feel lost.
And with that, I will sign off.